7/31/08

~I pray~

I feel so tired and stress..no 1 really understand why christian keep inviting their friends to church.
let me tell you, christian try to reach out to the public and share the gospel out is because they dont want people suffer in hell in the future... is very true....there is hell and heaven. Believe me please....is very scary.... do you think we have the benefit after you guys accepted Christ?? i can tell you seriously NO BENEFIT at all....why are we putting so much effort and time just to invite you guys come church?? did you guys ever think before?? I let more than 20 over people rejected me, but i never give up. I have faith, i know 1 day God will touch their heart. I cry for souls that can save back. God please forgive those people that dont know you and forgive me that i dont dare to share your gospel out.
Guys, hell is full of suffering, and full of pain. trust me please... there is no fake thing.
Back to the Kingdom of God

7/13/08

~Lucas belated Birthday~


well....thousand apologize to Lucas my dear...

I busy until i didnt wish him Happy Birthday.

This few days my church stuff is really screw up my time....

SO sorry....i really feel sorry to you...

I'm useless...

Hope you really will accept my apologize...

Sorry....

I cant give out my care nor even a birthday wish...

Im useless....

sorry Lucas..!!

please forgive me.!!

Happy Belated birthday..!!

Lucas replied:
I never angry....I'm okie..
dont think so much.
you better study hard, exam is coming..please..!!
Ashley feeling after taking to him:
I'm so happy, i got this kind of firends...
no matter what i did...they will always forgive and forget..
and still cheer me up and support me with no reason.
Lucas...you're really my lovely friends
Happy Belated Birthday my dear LUCAS...!! Muackxx.!!

7/12/08

~emotion day~

well...kinda long never update my little emo bloggie....!!
weee.....eeee again to update some emo thingy again...!!
sigh....i guess this the only place for me to release myself..!!
EMO STORY
just woke up, i've quarrel with 2 person.
why suddenly i became so emotion nowadays, am i lack of sleep or too "MYSELF"
even though the 1 who always tolerate me, started to F*** me up.
nah nah....I become a ROCK now..! hard and solid...
no one can win me, but end up i lose to myself...
a story behind me, I name this story book as "MYSELF, ASHLEY"
sound cool and rocky..but there is full of weaknesses there...
I'm weak when i face probelm
I'm weak when i come to a situation that dont know how to handle
I'm weak when come to slove problem
I'm weak when i doing something
Why cant i be strong?? where is ME?? i couldnt find it anymore...
because I'm lost when i weak.

6/18/08

~I lose and lost~

I hate people who falling in love with me..!!
After i rejected, (M) and I got a distance.
There is no more Friendship between us anymore.!
Why Cant we just ignore it??
I dont want to lose a friend because of that..
Cant we just be back last time??
I want to bring you back to the Kingdom of God
What you want me to do, i try my best to fullfil it..!
Please...dont because of the silly stupid thing and make us become a strangers.
My heart is full of pain, and sadness...
My tears drop because I cant save your soul.
Sorry.......

6/17/08

~A LETTER TO YOU FROM SATAN~

I saw you yesterday as you began your daily chores.
You awoke without kneeling to pray.
As a matter of fact, you didn't even bless your meals, or pray before going to bed last night.
You are so unthankful, I like that about you.
I cannot tell you how glad I am that you have not changed your way of living, Fool, you are mine.
Remember, you and I have been going steady for years, and I still don't love you yet.
As a matter of fact, I hate you, because I hate God.
He kicked me out of heaven, and I'm going to use you as long as possible to pay him back.
You see, Fool, GOD LOVES YOU and HE has great plans in store for you
But you have yielded your life to me, and I'm going to make your life a living hell.
That way, we'll be together twice.
This will really hurt God.
Thanks to you, I'm really showing Him who's boss in your life with all of the good times we've had.
We have been...
watching dirty movies,
cursing people out,
stealing, lying, being hypocritical, fornicating, overeating, telling dirty jokes, gossiping,
being judgmental,back stabbing people, disrespecting adults, and those in leadership positions, no respect for the Church, bad attitudes.
SURELY you don't want to give all this up.Come on, Fool, let's burn together forever.
I've got some hot plans for us.
This is just a letter of appreciation from me to you.
I'd like to say 'THANKS' for letting me use you for most of your foolish life.
You are so gullible, I laugh at you.
When you are tempted to sin, you give inHA HA HA, you make me sick.
Sin is beginning to take its toll on your life.
You look 20 years older, and now, I need new blood.
So go ahead and teach some children how to sin.
All you have to do is smoke, get drunk or drink while under-aged, cheat, gamble, gossip, fornicate, and live being as selfish as possible.
Do all of this in the presence of children and they will do it too.
Kids are like that.
Well, Fool, I have to let you go for now.
I'll be back in a couple of seconds to tempt you again.
If you were smart, you would run somewhere, confess your sins, and live for God with what little bit of life that you have left.
It's not my nature to warn anyone, but to be your age and still sinning, it's becoming a bit ridiculous.
Don't get me wrong, I still hate you.
IT'S JUST THAT YOU'D MAKE A BETTER FOOL FOR CHRIST.
P.S. If you love me, you won't share this

6/16/08

~Accepted~


Oh yeah....Praise the Lord.!! OH yea..!!
I accepted by "her"
the 1 that i always think that she hatred me a lot..
From the day i knew him, she dont really like me and she kept telling him not to close with me.!!
I started to angry and full of hatred towards her because she always stop us from seeing up each other, or even phone call.
I still remember that time we went out for a drink with our gang of friends, he reported to her that he going out soon with (.........the gang friends name.......) but my name not included inside..!! I shocked and asked him "WHAT"? even we go out with bunch of friends also can't let her know?? I was freaking angry with him.! because of these kind of incident happened, and we
But sooner and later, we started to pray and pray, and our spiritual leader cover us with their prayer, and now.......thing has change.!! she accepted me.... AMEN???
of cause AMEN..!!
our behaviour changed, and God make a way for us.!!
Praise the Lord..!! AMEN...

6/12/08

~ Assignment~

Kinda happy with my assignment result yea..!!
especially our group assignment..we get 18 over 20 the highest in econ class .
And the marketing we get 14 over 15...
not bad yea.!!
nice grouping with you guys!!
Lucas,Tracy,Jazz,Justin..!!
but my individual marketing assignment, i get kinda low..! because i did it in last min.!!
i just get 13 over 20..!! kinda sad...
Fundamental of management i get 11 over 15...
Okie la.!! kinda satisfied with it.!! must work hard on my final in order to get A in this few subject.! now i waiting and praying for my English assignment.!! Hope i can get high mark.!!


*PRAY By FAITH*




~Rest In Peace~


Today i brought boy back and see my ducky
because Boy never meet up with my ducky before.!!
so happening My ducky pass away last 2 week
I feel so sorry to Ducky, never go back and see Ducky often.
After I shifted to my new house, i cant take care of Ducky anymore
The moment i heard this news, my mind flash back a lot of memory
the moment i played with Ducky, and take photo with my ducky.
I kinda regret, too late to bring boy see my Ducky
Boy never meet ducky before..
Feel like crying now ...my ducky stay up with me more than 8 years
God please stay up with my ducky..although ducky dont have soul..
I pray that God will grant me the other duck...


May Ducky Rest In Peace


6/11/08

~3 dAYS~

3 days we been spend our time together....We having lots of fun..!! I can feel that our relationship is filled by the Holy Spirit...we spend our quality time happily. In these 3 days, we bake cup cakes together, bake cookies, watch movie and look for fishes..!!

We seem such a long time never walk together and play together...Most of the time we "................." sigh..!! but now our life is totally change to become a healthy relationship...! Thank God...You really came into our Life.!! Amen.!!
I love the holy life style...I love the way we are now.!! So peace..!! no tears..no sadness.!!