~Far away~

Is already 3.30 in the midnight... I still staying up in front my laptop

Out of a sudden, I wondering what I'm doing throughout the week

I felt sorry to Him, I've been never find Him and even ignore Him.

I started to far away from Him, I just felt empty now.

Every time wanted to close with Him, but my heart dont seem want to sacrifice the time for Him, I rather choose to find Darling.

Now i realise that, I'm totally living in this world. It was so wonderful and relax.

I can't face Him, I really can't ...is impossible for me.

Sometime i think of Him, My tears fall down with no reason.

I dont really believe that is His touched even though till now.

What's the problem??

The only problem is I want Him to leave me and just put me down.

"He" so called my important "person" in my life, but I cant do what he want me to do

I even love to do the things He dont like or even hate.

What a joke for me....

I knew He still waiting for me to go back to Him, but i chose not too..

If there a chance for me to choose, I rather I dont know Him...

And start to know Him all over again...Just like the first time I met Him.

It was so cool..sometime feel like press the restart button in our life.

Do this restart button exist in our life??

While I turn back my head and take a look in my life, I saw a lots holes and darkness...

Been calculating how many holes over there...(I guess cant finish calculate)

sick of writing so many stuff over here...

By the way feel like saying a sentence to Him... ( I miss You)

Isn't that a bit of a contradiction??