~3rd day~

Finally i can get sleep all over the night...

Seriously need to thanks to pk and ying ying..

both of them saw me like this, their heart is pain..well i guess so...

so they came to my house and "tam" me sleep. just like a baby

in this hard time, i must go through it..

If not i afraid i just simply find a guy to fulfill my sadness..

well...pray hard it wont happen this day.

from today onwards, i start to take care of myself..

I want to continue back my life.

Because i trust, and i believe the last time in God...

"he" will stand up proudly in front of everyone.

I waiting for the day. This will be my dream.

Thats nothing i can do...I only can fast and pray...

just waiting for the day to come...

I believe 4 of us is the brave warrior of CYC..

There's no one can take away it.

Last night...

I called him ask about his password.

but i saw waiting call..

I very scare when the moment i saw his phone is on waiting call.

my mind started to think wrongly, and.........cried....

I chose not to call him anymore in the future..

sms will be nice...because i might not know he on phone with other girls or her.

this the only way to prevent me not to think so much.

the most memorable things that he wrote is

End of this year, he will not the same person anymore.

after he success in his studies and in God way..

he once again will chase me back.

well..that's all I can do is wait.

is true when after i came back from UK.

I dont know i still love him like now, or he still love me like now.

but i hope God will make a way.

I'll WAIT

~2nd day of pain~

The second day of pain....

I wonder why I still so stupid, every second, every min waiting for my phone to ring.

Why i get cheated by someone that so close with me and even 2 times?? this question is keep flowing...

The moment my eyes is close, picture of the scene came out again...

Automatically my tears will roll down, and start to curse...

I feel like I want to go away from this place as soon as possible.

My heart is afraid of the day come...when both of them pass by my front.

Really cant imagine...but anyway will bless or congrats, if that is the day.

But i can say that, it will be more suffer than now.

No mood to study, no mood to eat or even rest. ( just like what i am now)

Very tired, very pain, very hurt.... is hard to describe the feeling..

just feel like my future is hard to walk.

Yes...everyone telling me that God is with me...

So?? the physical is not here...

still got 20 more days to go...

I dont know what will happen between you and me...

do we still celebrate? do we still can eat in a same table? or is the other one eating with you?

No one knows....

Sigh..is very tired to forget everything..just hope i get an accident...and bang my head...

so i can lost all the memory in a min time.

This is what i hope for....hope i wont so stupid purposely go bang a tree..

~The end our story~

I always think, I'm the one is the most happy in this world..

I always think, I'm the one who has no worries in my future....

And I always believe that, everyone around us are admire my life...

Somehow everything has change out of sudden..

I always believe that "YOU CHANGED"

But you still the same....

This is just a dream...This is just my thought...

The feeling of hurt and pain, I cant describe....

There is nothing I can do now...The only thing is to pray for you...

Once a person step wrong, don't look back...move forward...

Because everything will change ....It wont be the same anymore..

Just fight for the future....and God will provide us the things that we want...

Time to put down everything, is a very heavy burden...

Although is suffer...but the burden that i carrying is more suffer than now.

Put down and move forward, walk the mountain.

We will never be the same again.

Let put a stop in our story...and put a the end on it...

This will be the first day of my life without the burden..

Hope i still can accept you as my friend..

~Need YOU~

God...When I'm alone, you must be with me...
I'm finding an answer from you...
I couldnt see infront the road...
I need someone to guide and to teach...
God my tears will never roll down...
Because I HAVE YOU..

~Dont Judge a book by its cover~

Finally is Thursday...

is the only day i have no class.

I'm Extremely bored NOW....No one at home, No entertainment and even no friends are free

so......to get some entertainment is to open my house fridge and look for food and drinks.

Just for the afternoon, I open the fridge more than ten times.

Ah HAR......I think of something...Is use egg to do facial mask....

Is the only thing to kill time and also can beauty up myself.

I prepared everything in 5 min; tie my hair and do a quick facial wash..

DADA ....is time to crack the egg into the bowl...

When the moment i open egg box, I saw all eggs are crack....

Stupid me went to called my mum, and yell and her....

And my mum laught at me in a very evil way..and she told me is a creative way of making jelly using egg shell..

Ish...damn ....

A kill time method GONE...and even get bluff by a box of stupid jelly egg shells

The moral value of the day is Dont Judge a Book by Its COVER...

What THE ............ DAY......

~Stupid faces in Hong Kong~

~Poem to my BELOVED FRIENDS~

The rain makes all things beautiful.

The grass and flowers too.

If rain makes all things beautiful

Why doesn't it rain on you?

Yeah....Rain on you so you will be more beautiful...

I wrote your name on sand it got washed.

I wrote your name in air, it was blown away.

then ~ I wrote your name on my heart

And I got a heart attack straight

I Die because of YOU

God saw me hungry, HE created pizza.
HE saw me thirsty, HE created Pepsi HE saw me in dark, HE created light
HE saw me without problems, HE created YOU.

The one who reading...

~what to DO~

Nighttttzzzzzz again......

Is already 1a.m in the morning...

is very late....counting down in 9 hours time...

my last paper is going to start....

but i still in the first page of my notes...

well.....what i do this whole afternoon??

have sweet time inside my room....

la.....la......la......start to burn midnight oil again....

all the best to me....

~What a Hi~

ehh....Never know is already March 2009....

I've been abandon my blog for 3 months times...

Once again i say hi to my blog...

What a night, i need to burn up all my notes into my mind...

Having my final exam for this week..

just for a relax...gone through a few of my friends' blogger...

looks like everyone are busying on church event...

I'm just like standing outside my corridor and looking at the busy highway.

Nothing to do, feel like my circle of life is just me you he and her....

I'm kinda emo right here, seems like everyone is burning their notes
but I'm here blogging..

Looks like time is ticking away...Is time for me to turn back to my notes....

oh ya...By the way

Just for information...11 of march is one of a special day for me....

Specifically "Some special day for me"

I just name this day as (The Pain of Love)