~I lose and lost~

I hate people who falling in love with me..!!

After i rejected, (M) and I got a distance.

There is no more Friendship between us anymore.!

Why Cant we just ignore it??

I dont want to lose a friend because of that..

Cant we just be back last time??

I want to bring you back to the Kingdom of God

What you want me to do, i try my best to fullfil it..!

Please...dont because of the silly stupid thing and make us become a strangers.

My heart is full of pain, and sadness...

My tears drop because I cant save your soul.

Sorry.......

~A LETTER TO YOU FROM SATAN~

I saw you yesterday as you began your daily chores.

You awoke without kneeling to pray.

As a matter of fact, you didn't even bless your meals, or pray before going to bed last night.

You are so unthankful, I like that about you.

I cannot tell you how glad I am that you have not changed your way of living, Fool, you are mine.

Remember, you and I have been going steady for years, and I still don't love you yet.

As a matter of fact, I hate you, because I hate God.

He kicked me out of heaven, and I'm going to use you as long as possible to pay him back.

You see, Fool, GOD LOVES YOU and HE has great plans in store for you

But you have yielded your life to me, and I'm going to make your life a living hell.

That way, we'll be together twice.

This will really hurt God.

Thanks to you, I'm really showing Him who's boss in your life with all of the good times we've had.

We have been...

watching dirty movies,

cursing people out,

stealing, lying, being hypocritical, fornicating, overeating, telling dirty jokes, gossiping,

being judgmental,back stabbing people, disrespecting adults, and those in leadership positions, no respect for the Church, bad attitudes.

SURELY you don't want to give all this up.Come on, Fool, let's burn together forever.

I've got some hot plans for us.

This is just a letter of appreciation from me to you.

I'd like to say 'THANKS' for letting me use you for most of your foolish life.

You are so gullible, I laugh at you.

When you are tempted to sin, you give inHA HA HA, you make me sick.

Sin is beginning to take its toll on your life.

You look 20 years older, and now, I need new blood.

So go ahead and teach some children how to sin.

All you have to do is smoke, get drunk or drink while under-aged, cheat, gamble, gossip, fornicate, and live being as selfish as possible.

Do all of this in the presence of children and they will do it too.

Kids are like that.

Well, Fool, I have to let you go for now.

I'll be back in a couple of seconds to tempt you again.

If you were smart, you would run somewhere, confess your sins, and live for God with what little bit of life that you have left.

It's not my nature to warn anyone, but to be your age and still sinning, it's becoming a bit ridiculous.

Don't get me wrong, I still hate you.

IT'S JUST THAT YOU'D MAKE A BETTER FOOL FOR CHRIST.

P.S. If you love me, you won't share this

~Accepted~

Oh yeah....Praise the Lord.!! OH yea..!!

I accepted by "her"

the 1 that i always think that she hatred me a lot..

From the day i knew him, she dont really like me and she kept telling him not to close with me.!!

I started to angry and full of hatred towards her because she always stop us from seeing up each other, or even phone call.

I still remember that time we went out for a drink with our gang of friends, he reported to her that he going out soon with (.........the gang friends name.......) but my name not included inside..!! I shocked and asked him "WHAT"? even we go out with bunch of friends also can't let her know?? I was freaking angry with him.! because of these kind of incident happened, and we

But sooner and later, we started to pray and pray, and our spiritual leader cover us with their prayer, and now.......thing has change.!! she accepted me.... AMEN???

of cause AMEN..!!

our behaviour changed, and God make a way for us.!!

Praise the Lord..!! AMEN...

~ Assignment~

Kinda happy with my assignment result yea..!!

especially our group assignment..we get 18 over 20 the highest in econ class .

And the marketing we get 14 over 15...

not bad yea.!!

nice grouping with you guys!!

Lucas,Tracy,Jazz,Justin..!!

but my individual marketing assignment, i get kinda low..! because i did it in last min.!!

i just get 13 over 20..!! kinda sad...

Fundamental of management i get 11 over 15...

Okie la.!! kinda satisfied with it.!! must work hard on my final in order to get A in this few subject.! now i waiting and praying for my English assignment.!! Hope i can get high mark.!!

*PRAY By FAITH*

~Rest In Peace~

Today i brought boy back and see my ducky

because Boy never meet up with my ducky before.!!
so happening My ducky pass away last 2 week

I feel so sorry to Ducky, never go back and see Ducky often.

After I shifted to my new house, i cant take care of Ducky anymore
The moment i heard this news, my mind flash back a lot of memory

the moment i played with Ducky, and take photo with my ducky.
I kinda regret, too late to bring boy see my Ducky

Boy never meet ducky before..
Feel like crying now ...my ducky stay up with me more than 8 years
God please stay up with my ducky..although ducky dont have soul..

I pray that God will grant me the other duck...

May Ducky Rest In Peace

~3 dAYS~

3 days we been spend our time together....We having lots of fun..!! I can feel that our relationship is filled by the Holy Spirit...we spend our quality time happily. In these 3 days, we bake cup cakes together, bake cookies, watch movie and look for fishes..!!

We seem such a long time never walk together and play together...Most of the time we "................." sigh..!! but now our life is totally change to become a healthy relationship...! Thank God...You really came into our Life.!! Amen.!!

I love the holy life style...I love the way we are now.!! So peace..!! no tears..no sadness.!!

~A trip to hell by Pastor Philip Mantofa

This is a True story wrote by Pastor Philip Mantofa. Please spend sometime to read through this article. A TRIP TO HELL

Dear Friend,

January 1st, 2000, 5 am in the morning, I was in the large desert, dry and infertile. The wind was so heavy and weather was so hot. I saw a lot of weird and disgusting animals that I've never seen before in my life. I walked step by step through the desert till I found my self in a gloomy place.I had strange feeling that time and I could feel the pain spread to all of my bones. The situation was silent and dark. No wind blew. Dark cloud appeared surround that place.I could not describe it in better words� because there was only horrified of hell!A huge gate appeared in front of me. I felt nervous and worried but I tried to open that gate anxiously. It was not difficult to open it. I opened it and shocked because there was another gate bigger than the first one. It was written on top of that gate �VALLEY OF TORTURE�.

There was a doubt in my heart implicitly, whether I should continue this trip or not. But something that powerful inside of me made me to go on. My heart beat was loud as I could hear it my self while I opened the next gate and�Oh my God!... I could not believe�I could not believe what I saw�but it was real.

There was a long dark path in front of me. I stood in the side of the gate watching and predicting how large and long that path was but I could not see it clearly. I saw a vogue rise up in the end of that path. I thought it was terrible ocean of fire!

Along way I walked in that dark path, I saw many people were tortured by creatures wearing black clothes and having horns in their heads. I saw they were so cruel in torturing everyone there before they were put into the fire ocean at the end of the path. I heard affecting tears and pain mix up with dirty laugh sounds in that dirty place.

At the edge of the path, there was a young woman whose hands were bound at a piece of wood and she was surrounded by a lot of horned creatures who made fun of her and laugh at her. I saw her face was pail and white filled by fear. A strange weapon that I have never seen before was swinging in front of her face. I did not know exactly what it was but it was like a fork with a sharp cutting edge in the top of it. That weapon was carried by one of the horned devils which surrounded that woman. I heard the devils were threatening that poor frightened woman, �Lie!... Common, lie!!!�I saw her become more frightened. She was completely fell into the power of that horned devils so that she obeyed them whatever they want. That woman answered,� Yes, yes, I lied! I lied!�All of the devils were laugh, seems that they were satisfied with the young woman�s answer. I though after that woman did everything that they want, they will be released her. But what happened next was really made me shock! The devil stabbed that horrible thing into her face! The fresh blood squirted from her face! It was so horrifying! Her face did not have a shape anymore and her cried of pain so heartbreaking!

�Stop! Stop it!� I yelled.

But it strange, they could not heard my voice; even more my appearance seemed invisible for them! I felt disgusted for everything that I saw, but there were a lot of other views that surprise me and made me shock!

Then, I saw a man whose hair was burnt, only rotten skull remain. There were unburnable maggots come out from his skull cavity. He was lying and carrying from the end of the path not far from fire, I thought that they tortured him for a long time. His body was burning and his flesh was melting because he was lying near the hottest fire ever!

The devils who carried him were laughing at him. There was nothing he could do besides surrender him self to them. He was dying but he could not die. He looked like having terrible pain, seemed he wanted to say something for mercy. One of those devils said,� Common, masturbate! Masturbate!!� That man shaking answered, �Yes, I masturbate! I masturbate! Aaaahhhhh!� He was screaming and a lot of maggots come out from all of his body� so many!! I felt disgusted when I saw it, even when I heard his screaming �so horrible�!!!

There were more screaming and commanding that I heard. �Common, drink! Drink! Gambling! Deceive!� and those devils were laughing and enjoying the moaning of pain and tears, as they were listening wonderful music. I was afraid to walk in through that path. I only saw as far as I could and I was sure there were more kind of tortures at that place which is more appropriate to be called barracks of torture.

I found a view that made me really shock, there were many righteous and religion people there!! I did not believe it but I did not have power to deny all that I saw. I heard all their screaming when they were being tortured. They cried out for God, �God, help me! God, do I always be together with You? You tough us at our towns and I served You Lord!

They were begging to God but salvation had already close for them, till I heard they abused Him! My heart was breaking when I saw it! After that I was in the top of the horrible situation� I could not do that �journey� anymore. And I believed if I continued this journey, I will have been dead! �God� I cried �Please bring me out from here! Please God�� All of these were a vision, a horrible vision �vision of Hell! I was so happy when I found out that I was at home, even though after that I got ill for couple days. All of my bones and pivots were hurt; I suffered stomach disorder and got shock day by day.

I prayed to God and wondered what it�s all about, what He wants through my experience. God gave me understanding and deep burden for people around me. God wants me to tell what have been happened and will be happened to everyone. A lot of them are having fun, eating, drinking, having party, free sex, drugs and others seems that they can enjoy them forever. They do not realize that hell and the horned devils are waiting for them. They are the next victims.

I know that God really loves you. This �vision� that is showed to me proof that He still gives you a chance to repent.

My dear friend, I have to write this article to warn you. I do not want you having the same experiences as those people there. Truly, I love you all and I hope you will meditate all of these and repent. Accept Jesus Christ as your savior personally and start a new life and do not come out from the road that Jesus has decided to us.God Bless You.Your friend, Philip Mantofa.

~1 week~

in 1 week time, I've been busying by church stuff and my assignment..!!

finally I'm done with everything..!!

In this few days, I attending a conference that is Awakening for Jesus..!! in this few days i feel that revival is really coming to Malaysia.! i've learn a lot of things in this conference.! i cant express my feeling in these few days, the only thing i can is thank God. Since i born, I'm already a christian, but i never read the bible or even go church often. Now i only realize, actually God everyday and night waiting for us to praise Him and talk to Him, He is waiting for us, but i never care Him or even praise Him everyday. In my prayer list most of the time i just pray for myself, myself and myself, i never realize that we should ask God what He wants from us, even though i never try to give Him a kiss. Now i started to change my lifestyle, everyday i want to sit below Jesus feet to praise Him and worship Him. He is the only 1 that i love the most. I LOVE YOU.!