9/5/08

~100% of holy~

This is what i want to know..
how only we know ourselves is 100% holy??
well well....i still tell lie in front of my mummy, because i want to go out
I still get emotion.
those heavy sin deducted more, and the minor just few percent
do God calculate like this??
sigh....kinda complicated nia...
well basically every human will sin ( i mean everyday)
that means everyday we need to say a forgiveness prayer only we can be 100% holy??
if one day i never say the prayer...do you think i still HOLY??
nah nah.....question time again....

~Sins~

How to define the word ~SIN~
In Cambridge Dictionaries define that sin it means to break a religious or moral law
well...what bout our own definition??
One day, while i fellowship with my friends . suddenly a girl pop up with a question
asked me how to define the word "SIN" towards a couple.
guys the 1st think i thought of no sex before marriage. well everyone knew it..
but what she threw out the question is when a couple staying up together
and they truly pure and naive, never thought of doing (XXX) but they just hug and kiss on the bed. do you think that consider a sin??
suddenly i stun, i think of my leader told me.
"Why did you open a door and let the devil step in? that means before you start (XXX) this is the warm up stage that you going to do. You are encourage devil to come in to your life" that's why leader is not allow us to stay up together.
but now she asking we never thought of doing (XXX), we just want to spend time together.
do it consider SIN??
Oh my gosh.....First time i didn't know how to answer back...now i confuse....do you think that define as SIN?? arghh....help me to solve this question...
What i read from the bible is:
Thessalonians 4:3-8
tells us that God wants us to learn to control our bodies in holy and honorable ways.
(in her case, she keep mentioning i never thought of doing that, and both of us can control)
Ephesians 5:3-4
warns us to guard against every hint of sexual impurity, including obscene talk and crude joke.
(in her case, she told us we never talk and even want it)
Corinthians 13
you need to learn to love without having sex before you can "make love" by having sex
(back to it, she never thought of doing it)
I NEED YOUR OPINION

9/2/08

~Win Birthday~

opssie....someone turn up to 19 this year..
Is the person that i known him when i was 15.
So happening he study with me in the same college now and also in the same church.
well..used to be same cell group but now different..
at least we are in the same zone..
hahaha....LAME....by the way...Happy Birthday yea...
Gather all my blessing from God and greet you HAPPY BLESSED BIRTHDAY...

9/1/08

~let go! ~

Let go so that you can walk to the top
Let go so thats nothing can block you
Let go so that is nothing you need to carry
Let go and say I am FREE....
YES I am FREE....

Something is not yours that means is not yours.
let it go and let the next come...


~Emo blog~

well well well.....such a long time never even log in to my little emo bloggie...
time to say hi again....because im emo again...
sometime things happen just like this...never aspect too much...
i guess no 1 will know what im trying to say...but only me "myself" who know
being alone for 2 months i guess,
hide in a place that no 1 can find me
the feeling was....OH MY GOSH..."SYOK BETUL"
I love to be isolated, because only this time i can feel the happiness...(sarcastic)
hard to get attention, hard to get the praise from people.
when my spirit seperated with them, i found no topic to chat...
well, still got few month away, i can say bye to them...
Endure to the end of the day

8/1/08

~Devil *(&(*&)~

God...I pray that me and "E" will be okie in our friendship...
I want to find back last time our relationship time...
We always quarrel and hate each other, but our heart keep praying for each other.
God please draw us back together...
God please...and please....i beg you...!!
In Jesus name I order you IDIOT DEVIL go out from our friendship...
No boundaries, no hatred but there is God love in here...

7/31/08

~I pray~

I feel so tired and stress..no 1 really understand why christian keep inviting their friends to church.
let me tell you, christian try to reach out to the public and share the gospel out is because they dont want people suffer in hell in the future... is very true....there is hell and heaven. Believe me please....is very scary.... do you think we have the benefit after you guys accepted Christ?? i can tell you seriously NO BENEFIT at all....why are we putting so much effort and time just to invite you guys come church?? did you guys ever think before?? I let more than 20 over people rejected me, but i never give up. I have faith, i know 1 day God will touch their heart. I cry for souls that can save back. God please forgive those people that dont know you and forgive me that i dont dare to share your gospel out.
Guys, hell is full of suffering, and full of pain. trust me please... there is no fake thing.
Back to the Kingdom of God

7/13/08

~Lucas belated Birthday~


well....thousand apologize to Lucas my dear...

I busy until i didnt wish him Happy Birthday.

This few days my church stuff is really screw up my time....

SO sorry....i really feel sorry to you...

I'm useless...

Hope you really will accept my apologize...

Sorry....

I cant give out my care nor even a birthday wish...

Im useless....

sorry Lucas..!!

please forgive me.!!

Happy Belated birthday..!!

Lucas replied:
I never angry....I'm okie..
dont think so much.
you better study hard, exam is coming..please..!!
Ashley feeling after taking to him:
I'm so happy, i got this kind of firends...
no matter what i did...they will always forgive and forget..
and still cheer me up and support me with no reason.
Lucas...you're really my lovely friends
Happy Belated Birthday my dear LUCAS...!! Muackxx.!!

7/12/08

~emotion day~

well...kinda long never update my little emo bloggie....!!
weee.....eeee again to update some emo thingy again...!!
sigh....i guess this the only place for me to release myself..!!
EMO STORY
just woke up, i've quarrel with 2 person.
why suddenly i became so emotion nowadays, am i lack of sleep or too "MYSELF"
even though the 1 who always tolerate me, started to F*** me up.
nah nah....I become a ROCK now..! hard and solid...
no one can win me, but end up i lose to myself...
a story behind me, I name this story book as "MYSELF, ASHLEY"
sound cool and rocky..but there is full of weaknesses there...
I'm weak when i face probelm
I'm weak when i come to a situation that dont know how to handle
I'm weak when come to slove problem
I'm weak when i doing something
Why cant i be strong?? where is ME?? i couldnt find it anymore...
because I'm lost when i weak.