11/14/08

~L.O.V.E~??

When i only can jump out this circle??
I keep turn and turn...
I still cant managed to go out this circle....
well well well....Love is everything...
Sometime i have a wrong mind set....
Because of the word LOVE...
How to define Love?? how to keep our love refreshable every time??
well....I have a wrong definition for myself..
so end up now i suffered...

11/12/08

Die......


The day I fall into it once again....

10/11/2008-11/11/2008


Turn around

Wow....I found something new...
Is a place that I hope to go...
Where is it?? Is still a secret...
Start to count day by day
when is the time...
However still need to wait 300 more days
I really cant accept the fact in this place...
Everyone looks busy now...But i look free....
Running here and there...but I still standing...
Observing their life...
Found out no worries (except for church stuff)
Finally I FOUND SOMEONE... but end up she's not the one.
What a BULLSHIT word "FRIENDSHIP"
I still BELIEVE what she said...
END UP....EMO AGAIN
Turn around and restructure my heart....

11/6/08

~Let's start darling~

Just a new plan came out...
My next destination of study is at oversea...
When the night, I talked to him...
My faith started to swing ....
Sometime future can be predict ...
Story that can predict, is always turn up to be a bad result.
But
Who knows we will become a family...
well...sometime life is just like a snake game.
We never know after roll the dies, it turns up to be a good result or bad result...
now I playing a snake game, still wondering after i roll the dies, do it turns up to be a good result? or i just hold it ??
hmm...well sometime pray that miracle will happen..but sometime will also depends on fate.
is not about how good you maintain, is about how well you can endure...
Relationship is not an easy assignment to done well...
You need to go through the narrow ways, and also seek for HIS wisdom..
Only you can skip through all the holes.
Well......
Decision made...roll the dies
&
Lets the game begin...
Place our game into His hand..He shall shine our path...

~Camp turn me up~

Oh well... few weeks never blog...
by the way a lot of things happening in this period...
I guess this is the most cherish period in my life in church..
Came back from church camp last 2 week.
I joined game ministry, because lack of working member on it.
The whole camp, I never have the chance to play with my friends or even my group member
From the day till the night, every game team members busy by prepared stuff, and meeting
Never aspect no rest for me, exhausted...
Is Super Freaking TIRED...
Just recall back, actually game ministry is kinda fun though..
I've learned a lot of things through this camp.
Is a good experience for me to train up to be an independent girl...
Thank God...although the whole camp is busying by running here and there, but I felt the Holy Spirit is with me and filled the whole camp place.
In this camp, I cried, I suffered but no one knows...
Whatever you did in this camp, no one noticed you, only God
anyways Camp has pass...still got next stage to climb.
Day by day, I slowly will be train up
camp ROCK my life. & turn me up..!